Idea

Maybe Because of Uncertainty


Somehow people don’t know what to do – or what that is really need to make the right thing right. If you only walk inside a maze, you can always search for a way out, but if you move inside a mist – there will be harder to find the end of uncertainty.

Then way we feel uncertain? The very simple way to put this up, is because simply don’t know – like I said – don’t know what to do. We don’t know, and we become uncertain, and since we uncertain we become more-more feel like we don’t know, don’t know what is the right action, don’t know how to put a matter in right way – then we are considering to much until we spend an abundant amount of energy.

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Keeping Online Diary


I do think about keeping an online diary, but never became a realization. First of all, diary is something become very personal matter – that makes me hesitate to write it. But then, I become easily forget about what was going on, since I can not memorize everything clearly – means, I do have a bad memorizing capability.

Online diary is something that I think I could access it from anywhere around the globe without being worry, I would lost it on any trip I’ll have in future. So it must accessible.

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Idea of Being Happy


Pursuit of happiness, that what most people seek in their life. I think – for myself – this idea of being happy, has already long time gone without a single trace. I do not disagree about seeking a happy life, well, happiness is the very root of a life fully above this earth. I love seeing people live a happy life, the scene was amazingly joyful.

I’ve walk the path of darkness, and pursuing happiness neither in any part of it. I do not feel that this life must be conditions by the act – the path – of pursuing something that might crashed and blinded in its’ path.

When you feel unhappy, when you feel sorrow is unavoidable, you might just run away to thou who give you a feel of security & comfort. Or you may stand and challenge the life face by face. But its never fill the gaps between you and the unhappiness, except a thin film of security, happiness or the proud of being able to conquer this life.

Life is me, the unhappiness is me, the happiness is me – they are merely the other expressions of me. Running from myself won’t make me go any further, fighting myself won’t let me solve the matter. But I know, accepting myself would be a chance to understand myself fully.

Which implies, understanding the happiness & unhappiness. Pursuing happiness only makes me end by separating it – by separating myself. How could I am separating myself? Or could you?

To life fully, understanding is the beginning of everything. And within it, I’ve exclude the idea of being happy. When happiness comes, let it enter my deepest chamber of gratitude, when sadness returns, welcome it by warm and gentle smile.